Still depressed but I made it through

So I was very depressed through J'ouvert, Carnival Monday & Tuesday but I made it through. I didn't die though at times I felt I would especially after my cousin in Trinidad text me to my phone to check out a website that would have live feed on the parade of tha bands. So I went on to work & afterwards rush home to watch. I dunno why, it would only depress me more but I guess I just couldn't resist. I also felt conforted by my sister in law whom decided not to go either b/c she is prego. She is in NY & we watched together & chatted on IM screaming & crying together wishing we was chippin dong di road & taking a good wine wit RedBull & Vodka in we hand. I myself had bought my costume already & ended up selling it, so when I saw my section pass I felt tears starting to build up but I was tough, I sucked dem back up....lol! Oh laaawd!! But I will come back strong for 2009, that I do promise.